Why do I feel completely hopeless?
Recently I have found god and have chosen to devote my life to christ. I am very pleased with this decision but has opened a tons of questions. I never really put much thought into life. I was happy just being a wife and mother and knew one day I would die but that seemed so far away! I prayed for about a year that god would help me become closer to him and man did I get what I asked for. My husband showed me some crazy government conspiracy which made me think about death and I then realized we will not live forever. So everyday I have been torchered with this thought. I can no longer look at things and except them for what they are. I now only think in the eternal light. I am at peace with dying I know its something we all have to do but I almost feel not good enough to go to heaven. I ask god daily to forgive me of my sins and I have recently quit smoking ciggs because I felt it was a sin and ask god to show me the way. I know with out a doubt there is a heaven and from what my bible tells me I will be there since I truly believe in christ. So now I am at the point where life has no value to me anymore. I am a stay at home mother of a 3 year old son and i am 8 months pregnant with my second son. I love my family more then words can express and am terrified about losing anyone but it is a realty I now face daily. I cant escape it and its my worst fear. However I am still in a place that I don’t know what a should do with my life. I guess as a christan I am so ready to be with the lord that this life means nothing. Its like i dont know if i should fight death or welcome it. and on top of everything I cant escape the thought of losing everyone and everything around me it just seems so inevitable that sometime in my life i will lose someone who i hold deep to my heart. I dunno i just am rambling. I just went form a care free person to terrified of losing everyone and strive for nothing. Maybe its all the dang pregnancy hormones? I sure hope so cause I feel crazy
aww sweetie let’s see if i can help you some.God did not make us perfect,he gave us free choice and free will, to decide how we live our lives.our bodies are a temple to the Lord. but sweetie you have gone to the extreme with this, you are so afraid of doing something wrong, that your frozen,with fear.You can live a life here on earth and enjoy the beauty around you, can you not see it? God made a place here that is amazing and he wants you to enjoy it. the ocean the mountain’s tree’s everything cloud’s rain sunshine, your children’s face’s.life has both good and also painful lesson’s in it. it’s how we learn to grow and without the bad we wouldn’t appreciate the good thing’s in our lives’s.your not supposed to sit in the dark afraid to move for fear of losing what you have. that’s not God’s will.the bigger picture He see’s we cannot. and if something is meant to happen it is going to even if you stand perfectly still the rest of your life. you have been given the task of being a mother and a wife, i bet anything your a good and awesome Friend.nobody doe’s everything perfect. nobody. you have set your standards for yourself so high. that it’s not possible for you to attain them. you alarm me with this talk of life holding no meaning for you anymore. and i do be live alot of it could be extreme emotional hormone’s from pregnancy.I hope you don’t feel like you made a deal with God that if he did such and such you would do whatever you promised to him. God dosen’t make deal;s sweetie .if he brought a good man into your life. it’s what he intended all along to do.God is Joy joy in your life here as well as in heaven.you are a good person. you tell people of your love for God. and how his touched your life and made it better.and yes we lose people we love it’s part of life, but if your so afraid to live your life with them, you need those memorie’s. the laughing and joy of those you love and that love you.don’t deprive yourself of these thing’s. God made us to love and be loved.He dosen’t want you to be afraid and live in fear.remember make a joyful nosie unto the Lord.I hope and pray you have someone in your life . you can talk to to tell these thing’s to. a doctor a minister someone. you need to tell someone,i’m scared for you. if you wish to talk, sometime’s it;s easier to talk to a stranger then those you fear may judge you or not understand. e-mail me i’m jamiegrammie@yahoo.com. please anytime.
February 1st, 2010 at 12:55 pm
it could be pregnancy hormones – but whatever’s causing it, you definitely have the symptoms of major depression…talk to your doctor about it – there’s help available….your babies need you.
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February 1st, 2010 at 1:18 pm
It seems you are too caught up in the thought of death. It may be the hormones cause I had a friend who went through something similar when she was pg. Don’t worry so much, everything will be fine. It is great to have God in your life, but don’t get so overwhelmed by it. You are here to live life and experience. Each day is a gift from God and you have a purpose to fulfill. If it means being a wonderful wife and mother right now, then that is what it is. You can always think of doing other things also. You can volunteer your time to the church or to helping the homeless etc. Maybe join a chat room and talk to other mothers. Don’t worry about dieing now. You have children and a husband to be there for.
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February 1st, 2010 at 2:00 pm
becase your beautiful
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February 1st, 2010 at 2:05 pm
Don’t be so negative on yourself, because I can tell that you are a very devoted Christian. Truthfully, I am very nervous and afraid of death. It’s hard to explain in words but it terrifies me. I love my mother unconditionally and sometimes wish we don’t have to face the horrible event of seperating (through death).. This may sound silly but it bugs me every now and then. All I have to say is that, let God help lead the way. Try not to be afraid because God is there to support you alllllll the way..=)
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February 1st, 2010 at 2:48 pm
As a Christian we all face that problem, but what you have to look at is that you have a purpose here. The average age is about 70-80ish, and that is so very little compared to the eternity we will have in Heaven, but God has You here for a reason., and to me the most apparent reason you are here is for your soon to be two amazing and beautiful children, and in regards to your loved ones passing; you can’t look at it as loosing them. That not whats happening, There just getting called home before you. Everyone has a time that God calls them home, and you can’t worry about that once they are gone all you can do celebraterte the life they had here and bless the life they will have until you are united again at the wonderious gates of Heaven.
I hope I helped a little.
God bless you.
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February 1st, 2010 at 3:04 pm
wow this made me cry. it touched me. I wish i could be as brave as you. Im struggling with depression and its seems so hard life and all. but i used to go to church all the time i havent really in over a year and my depression is over the top. So im thinking about getting back up and going to church maybe it will help. But you inspired me! Life seems scary sometimes no one knows why but just remember their are alot of people out there that really care about you! Just keep living life and just be thankful for what you got. It could also be the hormones that get you thinking like that.
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February 1st, 2010 at 3:10 pm
why not take your 3 years old son to get some piano lesson, dance lesson, or something… maybe you can gain some hope from that.
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February 1st, 2010 at 3:21 pm
i feel hopeless too and theres nothing that makes me feel better i want to die
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February 1st, 2010 at 3:53 pm
aww sweetie let’s see if i can help you some.God did not make us perfect,he gave us free choice and free will, to decide how we live our lives.our bodies are a temple to the Lord. but sweetie you have gone to the extreme with this, you are so afraid of doing something wrong, that your frozen,with fear.You can live a life here on earth and enjoy the beauty around you, can you not see it? God made a place here that is amazing and he wants you to enjoy it. the ocean the mountain’s tree’s everything cloud’s rain sunshine, your children’s face’s.life has both good and also painful lesson’s in it. it’s how we learn to grow and without the bad we wouldn’t appreciate the good thing’s in our lives’s.your not supposed to sit in the dark afraid to move for fear of losing what you have. that’s not God’s will.the bigger picture He see’s we cannot. and if something is meant to happen it is going to even if you stand perfectly still the rest of your life. you have been given the task of being a mother and a wife, i bet anything your a good and awesome Friend.nobody doe’s everything perfect. nobody. you have set your standards for yourself so high. that it’s not possible for you to attain them. you alarm me with this talk of life holding no meaning for you anymore. and i do be live alot of it could be extreme emotional hormone’s from pregnancy.I hope you don’t feel like you made a deal with God that if he did such and such you would do whatever you promised to him. God dosen’t make deal;s sweetie .if he brought a good man into your life. it’s what he intended all along to do.God is Joy joy in your life here as well as in heaven.you are a good person. you tell people of your love for God. and how his touched your life and made it better.and yes we lose people we love it’s part of life, but if your so afraid to live your life with them, you need those memorie’s. the laughing and joy of those you love and that love you.don’t deprive yourself of these thing’s. God made us to love and be loved.He dosen’t want you to be afraid and live in fear.remember make a joyful nosie unto the Lord.I hope and pray you have someone in your life . you can talk to to tell these thing’s to. a doctor a minister someone. you need to tell someone,i’m scared for you. if you wish to talk, sometime’s it;s easier to talk to a stranger then those you fear may judge you or not understand. e-mail me i’m jamiegrammie@yahoo.com. please anytime.
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